"you will always be my sayang"

"if there's any mistake in me, please tell me. I dowana lose you."

"i will try my best to make us work"

"Ti, do something about us before it's too late"

It's only a swipe of things been said to me. I'm fighting emotions sometimes reminiscing the best moments i had in my life. It's true. Ever since I had him, he was the best thing that happened to me. No one could compare to that. He was the sweetest soul I've ever met. Conflicts come and go but we would always try our best to maintain the best we could. I have him imprinted everywhere I could think of. In my wardrobe, ontop of this PC, in my wallet, on my PC, my qur'an notes, my red butterfly notebook...It's endless. I used to get a big moony attack wen I look at his face. I would close my eyes and thank God every time when I see how lucky I am to have him, for making me happy. I don't remember feeling down wen I spend my nites with him. Sometimes I felt unfair too. He keeps giving and i kept receiving. But whenever i point it about me being uncomf abt it, he will always say, "It's ok. If there's a next time, you can do it for me. It's give and take." Sigh.. how i miss those wise words. All I can say, that happy pink season did not last. All the color in my life that i see now is gray...it has pink too but it wasn't as bright and cheerful as then. I couldn't help it but feel a slight squeeze in my heart everytime i look at our pic ontop of my monitor in my bedroom. We were both happy, taken at the back seat of his car. I had not resumed workin then so we went out after he had finished work. We both wore white tops. I made a face, pursing my lips while he had glasses off, with a slight smile on his adorable face. If miracles come true, I wanna be as happy as i was since that season in february....